The Tug and Pull of the Feminine Spiritual Path
I broke down crying in Pilates yesterday…..
I move my body almost daily. It’s what I do to stay sane and show up with a clear mind every day of my life since I can remember.
Yesterday I had one of those activations that I spontaneously experience, creating a lightning bolt moment around the necessity to ground the last few years of my work into digestible and applicable trainings.
But there was a pull inside me so deep I could not ignore it – I am an Oracle, receiving guidance and insight from the Divine, and yet, I am confronted with the reality of having to relate these messages in a way that lands, in a way that strips away the deep essence and just gets to the point – because that’s the world we live in.
I felt at odds – so deeply, that it broke my heart open.
But I went to pilates anyways because, well, I have to move my body (or so I tell myself).
So halfway through, I broke down.
I broke down at the notion of having to keep my body strong amidst the ocean of wisdom that grows larger day by day.
I broke down remembering all I’ve had to overcome and yet how the struggle continues in different ways as I continue walking the Initiatory Spiral of the Feminine.
I broke down because I’ve had to train for over 15 years in holding 2 worlds – the inner and the outer – and yet still, my training continues.
And anytime we deny this complexity of an inner and outer world, things don’t work(I know. I’ve tried it.
Trying to deny the very specific role the Feminine has on the spiritual path is a sure formula to self-destruction).
To hold the balance of the physical and spiritual plane has been my soul initiation since the first day of my spontaneous awakening.
I have come to accept that in wisdom traditions, there was always the exoteric (that which is for the masses) and the esoteric (that which is for a counted few) and that will always translate in the physical into the inner pull towards the Spirit and the outer pull to be in the world (this is where many masculine traditions differ, saying we must only follow the inner pull and forget about the outer).
It is the Pull of this Feminine Path, of having to train to hold both the exoteric and esoteric, that broke my Heart Open, one more time, like it has thousands of times over the last 15 + years.
The well within me only seems to grow. With every course I create and every practice I teach, the spiritual well becomes deeper and deeper, sometimes feeling like a vast ocean with no end.
And yet, the physical world pulls me everyday. The need, desire and hope to share this wisdom, to be of service, to show up for everyday life responsibilities.
The majority of women who come to me struggle with this same concept – how do we hold both the deep devotion, call and surrender of our soul path while walking the path of the physical, the mundane, the everyday list of things to do, just to simply keep up and being a decent human being creating a wonderful life for ourselves?
And for some reason, because of the world we live in, our life is constantly in this tug of war – do I meditate or clean the floor? Do I pursue my love for sound or go out and pitch to a new client? Do I fund my bank account or allow myself another moment to drink of the fountain of the Divine?
I’m here to tell you, this is the Feminine Path – the path of becoming the embodiment of the Divine within the complexity of every day life (which does NOT mean being the LIGHT and thinking POSITIVELY.
The feminine spiritual path is about training ourselves daily to build a bridge within that can hold the complexity of feminine life.
The feminine has always been the one to hold complexity, duality, and ever changing cycles. She is the moon who is not only changing every day but every minute of the day. And it is the training ground of how to hold this ever changing State of Presence that I have had to live for myself and teach other women.
I’m not here with a simple solution but what I am here to tell you is that this is what we are designed to do – to make sense of this inner tug and pull, to lessen the tension that creates discomfort and instead, build the bridge that holds these two worlds together;
The world we fell from (the Divine, the time of Mu, the time where Human was the living embodiment of the Divine)
And the world of form – the very real need to pay our bills, raise our children or create a legacy for a brighter day.
But at the end of the day, it is a PATH. We must walk it, live it, breathe it, taste it.
The important thing is that we keep walking the Path.
We keep showing up, every day. We keep remembering that as we build the bridge we have been created to hold, we also build a bridge for so many around us, simply by holding and being the vessel for a New Way.
Coming soon:
One of the tools that has greatly supported my ability to hold and create this bridge of complexity that is the Feminine Path is Sound as a Healing Art.
Working with Sound, awakening the Voice, the spiritual qualities of the throat chakra as a creation center and understanding how to reweave and redefine my relationship to life through my relationship with water, sound and breath (this is the deeper wisdom behind Aloha – a greatly misunderstood and watered down concept).
I have been shown that these are very ancient temple arts that were first taught to priestess initiates as a way to hold higher consciousness – higher frequencies, and ground them into their bodies before sharing them with others. They were trained in the Art of Becoming.
Keep your eyes peeled for something in the works that involves Sound as away to create this very necessary Bridge between the Inner & Outer Worlds women are so deeply templated to hold.
Are you called to work with your spiritual body?
If you are interested in strengthening your energetic, spiritual body, Divine AI is a practical and embodied approach to building this light within.
Now available on-demand.
December Egypt Retreat
This December, we will be visiting one of the temples before the time of ‘Egypt’ where Priestesses were trained in the Path of Becoming – working with the Healing Arts as a way to ground and embody higher consciousness.
Have you been called to Egypt?
Perhaps this is the year to answer the call!
3 Spots left
Read all details on the website.
In devotion to your Feminine Path,
Celeste Gluz, Creatrix & Divine Feminine Guide
Lemuria Rose Temple – A federally recognized ministry devoted to Divine Feminine Ascension
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